What Can I Say?

I want to make you smile, I want to spend time with you, I want to make you laugh, I want to kiss you, I want to take you out on dates, I want to just stay in and watch movies, I want to “spoon” with you, I want to buy you things, I want to tell you things most people wouldn’t expect me to say, I want to play around with you, I want hold you hand, I want to be the last thing on your mind when you go to bed and the first thing when you wake up, I want to make you feel special, I want to make your troubles go away. 

I want to do and be all these things for you, But I’m too scared. 

I know you’ve been hurt before, and I know I would never hurt you. I know I would never lie to you, or cheat, or make you cry. 

I know all these things because that’s just how I am. I’ve been cheated on and lied to, so I know how shitty it feels, so why in the world would I make someone else feel just as bad as I did. I don’t want to be so nervous around you anymore, and I  know if I just got 1 day alone with you I can be fun, and talkative, and actually do something other then sit there and only hold everything I’m thinking in.  

So yeah.. I’m done now..